Kalie

Wow, so this week so far has actually really good! im really excited for when they leave for NYC, just cuz ill have the house to my self and i dont get that very often. And i think that they are pissed cuz im not going , but i really dont care! Cuz i can hang out wiht brittani and/or katie  all week so its gonna be a blast! but ill prolly hang oiut wiht katie more then brittani just cuz shes gonna wanna be with john as much as she can, but she can do that right now so...., but i dont know whats gonna happen! but i hope that i actually get to stay at my house and not have to go somewhere and stay!! and even if they dont want me there, i can still get in so i guess that it really doesnt matter either way, that way i see it! but yea i was SO pumped this morning cuz i knew that LOST was on tonight and i was planning on goin to krystins hosue like we always do and now i cant go cuz brittnai donst wanna bring me home and 10:00 tonight!! UGH! but ill just have to find something to do tonight! im suposed to go to teh cheerleading competition to see kendra, but im suposed tog o wht brittani out to dinner for our coousins b-day!! but i really dont wanna do that cuz i dont even like half of that family thats gonna be thats anyways, but i dont know what im gonna do!! i hate whne i hvae to make decisions, cuz obviously im not good at it!! but i cant wait till we get off for school!! just 4.5 days of school left before we get off for break!! and tehn we dont come back untill the 4th of january! thast gonna be a good break, cuz ill be home alone for a week , now thast the BIGGEST break of them all!! but i have to do some research for my speech that was due a week ago and i never did it cuz i dont really know what to do it on but ill think of somthin so untill next time!!!

Current Mood: anxious

Current Music: voices in the library

Well its official! im not going to new york!! my dad asked me the other day if i wanted to go wiht them and i said no and he got pissed!! i do feel bad but i just do not wanna go this time!! and i told him that i was sorry that i wasnt going and he said that he wasnt mad but i could tell that he was cuz i know him!!!but oh well!! im gunna have fun no matter what i do on new years cuz im either gunna go to krystins house with brittani, or just stay here and have katie and jorry comeover!! that would be fun too but i really wanna go to krystins hosue and drink wiht them over there!!! but yea so this whoel thing between gaeya and britani has gotten really far!! brittanis moving out cuz of gaeya and im fuckin pissed now cuz now ive only got myself and my dad, (when hes in a good mood)! but i guess ill have to go and stay at my moms once in a while to see brittajni and hang out with her and john boy!!i really like hangin out with her john and  kystin and krystins!! im goin theere on wdnesday to watch lost with tehm!! i cant wait till tomorrow tho cuz the deleted episodes of the real world are on tomorrow and i gott watch it, i love that show!! but it sok that its over now cuz the gaunlet is starting so thats good too! i cant wait till they leave to go to new york cuz then i will have the hosue to myself!! that is gunna be soooooooooo nice for me!! i love it wehen im all by my self for periods of time, its fun!! and plus then theres NO drama at the house cuz im the only one there!! but my wrist hurts relly bad so im gunna go and ill update more later when my wrist dontes hurt so much!!

Current Mood: numb

Current Music: 311: freeze time

"Beyond The Gray Sky"

It is a gift I know
A moment of bliss that we hold
A firecracker flash of light then on
To the next plane soul remain
Come along if you dare
It's gonna be that you're scared
Lovely life I thank you
For the reason to see the pain through

Light a candle for the dead
The wick is burning returning what we have
It's who we are
We'll reach you if you're beyond the furthest star

Don't give up the fight to stay alive and even if
you have to
Find the reason of another's pain if they lose you
If not for your self then those around who care
like I do
One day you'll see the clear blue

Beyond the Gray Sky
Light a candle...
The wick...
It's who we are...

One day youill see the clear blue
Beyond the Gray Sky

I can't believe you didnit call
What made you want to end it all
Wasn't there something I should have tried
To help you see beyond the gray sky
 

This is one of the best 311 songs ever!!

Current Mood: crazy

Current Music: 311:freeze time

yea so i definatle cant stand it at my house anymore! like i can, but its like ya know you dont wanna be there cuz i get put in the middle of EVERYTHING!! not just a few but every single thing that goes on at my house has somthing to do with me and im so fuckin sick of it!! This whole thing wiht brittani and gaeya, yea guess whos in teh middle? Yup you guessed it....ME! this is so dumb and even my dad sticks up for gaeya and thats bull shit too! i mena what parent in there right mind sticks up for ther STEP kids? seriously, c'mon now! and so now all ive got in that house is brittani and shes never there anymore cuz she has teh option to stay at Krystins everynight while im at home gettin more shit put on my shoulders!! and its not even tha fact that i hate gayea,  a big part of that factor is that my own dad, my own flesh and blood cant even stick of for his own kid which is fuckin rediculous, well in my oppinion. and in brittanis too. And my dad doesnt even see it, and that really bothers me, i mean how can you not see it when he  does it everysingle day. oh yea and i got kicked outta school on friday cuz of derrick mother fuckin hasse, that lil pussy fuckin called me a bitch, so i hit him in teh face and the lil pussy took it to Mr. Schmidt!! yea hes fuckin dumb as hell and so immature and it pisses me off how ppl that are older then me can be so much more immature then me!! lol yea derrick that you, ya fuckin PUSSY!!!and , so when my dad got home form teh store , i told him right away that i got kicked out so i couldnt go to school on monday, and all he told em was to "NOT WORRY BOUT IT"! so i said ok i wont then if u dont care why should i, ya know!!so then monday morning comes around and he comes in my room at about 7 am and wakews me up and says its time for school!! i was like dad i told you that i got kicked out and u told em to not worry bout it, so i didnt! he goes well shit i thought u were kidding!! i was like yea fuckin right! so he was like well im just gonna tell lisa that ur sick. so he fuckin goes and tells her that i got kicked out!! then shit fuckiun hit the fan! "she got kicked outta school and you let her do what ever the fuck eh wanted to do all weekend?"-lisa! i was so fuckin pissed at ehr omg i could of screamed right there!! like he has to tell lisa sumthin different just so he cna save his own ass from lisa gettin pissed off at him, but instead he rather have lisa pissed off at me! and i dont care what lisa  fuckin said to me the otehr day, im not goin to new york with them! yea i wanna go to be wiht my dad, but im not goin cuz i dont know if i can stand EVERYONE i n a car for 18 hours !! i would prolly fuckin go crazy! and my dads makin me feel reall guilty for not wantin to go but i dont care, i seriously dont wanna go with them! if it was just me me dad and brittani i would deffinatly go but its not so of course im not gunna go!! so if they have a problme wiht it they can , cuz i wont go wiht them!!

Now on teh flip side, tonight is gunna be a good one cuz we dont have school tomorrow, and im either goin to krystins or chillin wiht katie but i think im just gunna go to krystins after we go help my mom move some of ehr shit into her new house!!! im so excited for her to have her own house by her self!! its guna be good for her!!

Current Mood: confused

Current Music: none

Wow this live journal thign gets older and older so i wont be in here no more, and its all bull shit anyways so yea this is my last entry!!

"Nix Hex"

Story time
Sways away the haze
They spent contemplating, formulating, theory siring above me swimming
Pay tribute to the few we look up to
Come again
You my soul fool
Who will know us but our brothers
Those who down with us are thinking
New school, tip top, pound the feeble
Walking and talking
Low down and evil
Follow me now
Yo Vato
The nix hex is on

Would everybody just look at the hook
I took it straight from my brain
Reminds me of the time I was insane
And so I wrote it when I was loaded
And voted the least likely to turn out like a square

I'm singing it for your mind and know
I'm singing it for your ears
Jump up and down and leave the ground and know that's why you're here
And they say down diggy down down, down diggy diggy down,stronger, longer
Line up your ways of know what I'm thinking say it again

And now I'm with my home team back with a good seat
I gladwick like chadwick to tell you what I mean
Were laying back on it just like good sex
Smooth yet psychedelic its called the nix hex-um

The monologue of a singalong
Las banderas de san juan piden pa ??
"I'm feelin' fine, lord it's time"?? Go tell it on a mountain,
then again bring a friend
You'll maybe get dizzy with a scence of vertigo

Uplifted soul from the view that I'm on nothin' but love
But love
But love in my blood sonic in the vortex
This is the hip thing
Called the nix hex
Dig it

Current Mood: calm

Current Music: nix hex: 311(the best song ever)

Let us burn one from end to end,
And pass it over to me my friend.
Burn it long, we'll burn it slow,
To light me up before I go.

If you don't like my fire, then don't come around,
'cause I'm gonna burn one down.
Yes, I'm gonna burn one down.

My choice is what I choose to do,
And if I'm causing no harm, it shouldn't bother you.

Your choice is who you choose to be,
And if you're causin' no harm, then you're alright with me.

If you don't like my fire, then don't come around,
'cause I'm gonna burn one down.
Yes, I'm gonna burn one down.

Herb the gift from the earth,
And what's from the earth is of the greatest worth.
So before you knock it try it first,
Oh, you'll see it's a blessing and not a curse.

If you don't like my fire, then don't come around,
'cause I'm gonna burn one down.
Yes, I'm gonna burn one, oohhh.

P.S. this is for all you ppl who just judge it first!!

Yea, so i got my pink slip monday! Yahooo! lol! so yea i really do not want school to start at all!! i hate school and it sucks ass all together! have you guys got ur school schedual yet.........? well.........I hAvE!!

1st Am. Studies - Sikkenga

2nd ceramics - Jones

3rd Algebra - Millhisler

4th Phys. Sci. - Glane

5th ceramics - Jones

6th speech - Ordahl

     P.s, if you have any classes with me just gimmie a hoot, ok!

Current Mood: excited

Current Music: none

OMGosh, someone PlEaSe tell me how you get kicked out of canada! seriously!! Well i guess if your Miek and Rico, you can!lol So yea anyways, all ive been doing is..........Nuttin!! istarted drivers Training monday, and its boring as hell! lol!So yea, i wentr to the beach yesturday and went swimming cuz it was really warm for lake michigan!! Then we played frizzbe! lol! it was fun tho! then we had to leave cuz becky had to go to work! I hung out with Jamie, Jack, Twity and Adam at jacks house teh other night!! that was so much fun!! then tomorrow i might stay at jamies moms house, cuz her mom is kick ass! lol! well yea i gotta go to work tonight till 10! then i wanna go do sumthin cuz i wanna liek go hang out with a whowle bunch of ppl!! Next saturday Jory comes home!! Yahooooo! well not so yahooo but ya know!! yea, lately i have been pullin  my self awaya form hime so i havent really kept in touch wuth him while he was gone!! I dont wanna like him anymore, i seriously dont, at all!! i mean hes been tellin me that if we werent such good friends that we would hook up!! then today i found out that hes been tellin the person that WaS my best friend how much he loves her and that she loves him too! i mean come on now !! you dont tell someone that, and twhen go tell some one else that too!! thast bull shit and we were suposed to hang otu last weekend when he was home form north carolina, but he never even wantred to see me so i guess he turned out to be an asshole just like all teh rest of them!! But i gotta go cuz i got thigns to do!!

                                                              Ü ~KaLiE rAe~Ü

Current Mood: disappointed

Current Music: PaPa RoAcH: ScArS

Well lately i havent really done anything cuz i have been babysittin for that past week and a half from 7am till 630 pm!! yea talk bout BoRiNg! The kids dont do a damn thing but watch TV, and its boring, so all i really do is do stuff on the computer all day!! yea but besides that my mom wants me to go to a 3 Doors Down concert with her cuz she really likes them, so do i!!Well i cant wAiT till this week is over, that means that im DoNe babysittin for a while!! YaHoO!! Halleyluya{sp} praise the lord!!! hehe! well yea mike and rico come back from New York this weekend!! Well thats really not the best thing cuz i think that he stillt hinks that hima nd Geaya are still together, but she reallt dotn think so!! lol! so i dotn know whats gunna happen when he gets home, or if he will even call her anymore!! But we will see! but i have to go cuz the lil boy needs help gettin dressed so ill update later!!

≈KaLiE rAe≈  

Current Mood: nauseated

Current Music: Papa Roach: Scars

well the last few days have been ok, well 2 days ago katie, kelly and erica came over and stayed the night and we slept in our playhouse!! ya know thatw as fun!lol! last night i had to owrk till 10 then came home and went to the drive ins wiht brad, and adam!! I dotn knwo brads last name but its tina's x-boyfriend!!! hes real cute too! well i like to hang out wiht them but  i miss my olld crew too! but lately we havent hung out wiht them cuz mike always has to be home by 10 cuz of work!!but hey its all good! hopfully we han gout with them tonight cuz i really wanna! but idk! we have a game tomorrow, hopfully we win that too! we havent wona game yet and it sux ass!We went and seen longest yard with adam and brad last night! and a few days ago we went and seen mr. and mrs. smith at the movies with them too! it was fun! but i gotta go soone so bye!

Current Mood: indescribable

Current Music: tom petty: girl on LSD

so yea gaeya finally got to leave the house last night, she almost didnt get to thanx to our very loving sister brittani!! yea shes a bitch for doing what she did and i dotn really give a shit if we never talkt o easchother again it will make my life so much better!! i cant even believe thats he said that she was better then me and gaeya, thast so fuckin conceided!! i hate that shit when ppl say that bout tehm selves!! thast just shows how dumb and immature this person is!! she knows that i hate her but she still keeps on pissing me off then we get into it again and its bull shit what she says to me and she sits there and bitches at me about gaeya and i ahte that too!! she sat there the other day and told me how gaeya is gunna end up like her sister and mike is gunna end up like joel and thats a bunch of bull shit, she didnt even need to go that far with it and she thinks thats shes so fuckin mature but obviously u can tell thast shes not!! but i got things to do so bye~~

Current Mood: enraged

Current Music: metalica: nothin else matter

Yea, so we DEFINATLY lost our softball game today against mona shores~ Yep we lost like 1-17!! They swamped us big time! lol! its ok, we have another game tomorrow but its home so hopefully it will be better! HE! Well so this summer still isnt really the best one ever!

         Well we found out today that gayea cant hang out with mike any more cuz of brittanis dumb ass! I cant even begin to believe that she would even rat on gaeya for that shit!! that so fuckin dumb and immature i cant even stand it! she thinks that she has to run this place when she dont! she gets on me and gaeya bout not doing anything but yet shes never here to see it! so shes wrong there! and its just plaine shitty that he would even rat on her like that! she always says how much she hates ppl that rat on ppl like that, but look what she did..

                           .......o, wait she does it too! abnd thast bull shit, shes such a fuckin hippacrit its not even the slightest bit of funny! and shes just loving it, which is bitchy too! i cant even stand to be in the same house as her anymore, and thast sad! we used to get along till mike and rico came around, but i dont really give a flyin fuck, id rather be with them then her any day!! but yea so weve just been chillin wiht jackie and dustin and rico!! they are lots of fun to be with too! but i actually miss mike too! lol~ but before i say other things i better go ~

Current Mood: annoyed

Current Music: ludachris: blueberry yum yum

Yea so so far this summer isnt the best ever! Yea its been pretty much boring so far!! Well lets see, thursday i hung out with jackie, dustin and rico! we went to the lake down town by like the herritage landing! then friday i went to the beach with Jackie smith, jane and her boyfriend john! that was ok, it wasnt the best time ever cuz the water was just a lil cold after a while, and a crap load of guys just swormed the beach so jackie didnt wanna leave!hehe! Well today i have nuttin planned as of right now, im really bored cuz im home by myself and there is nuttin to do untill gaeya gets hiome from on the boat! so yea that is my summer so far...............boring as hell!

Current Mood: hot

Current Music: FlAw: best that i am

Yea, so ugh, havent updated in a long time! well this week was ok! i had softball practice all week but i didnt go thursday or friday cuz i didnt feel like it!lol ! Yea so wednesday i was at practice gettin ready to catch a pop fly and all of a sudden my nose starts bleeding out of no where, so i just left cuz brittnia was there to get me! all we had in teh truck was a lil school napkin!! It sucked so bad!! it was like leeking through! then it started comeing out of both nostrals!! thats when i started to freak out cuz thast not really normal!!lol!So when i got home i just ran to the bathroom and cleaned my sefl up!! but it didnt quit work that way!!I had real big blood clots so my dad took me to the emergency room to see why that happend, but they didnt even do a thing to me for it either!! it pissed me off so bad! But i got over it!! they said if it happends again then just call or come in again, well when i got home it happends again but i didnt call or go in!! i said fuck it! Well so i havent been up to much lately all ive really been doing is chillin wiht Rico and Mike all the time!! I like hangin out wiht them so much!! you dotn even know! So yea i think we are gunna go to the beach tonight with them!! Well at least rico said that they wanted to go to the beach tonight! He wants me to jump in wiht him, but i dotn think thast gunna happend!! that water is so freakin cold i dotn think i could do it but i might, we'll see, but i dotn know!! And my parents are out of town so we dont have to ask if we can do something!! YAHOOO!!! im so hyper today cuz we can be free and not have to owrry bout anything at all!! WOOHOO!!

Current Mood: naughty

Current Music: gorillaz: clint eastwood

Well, so friday i went to Melanies house to hang out with her, katie and k-la! it was fun , but i wish that it was a lot funner! Whejn i got to melanies house we got ready to go to twity's party thign that he was havin! I had fun there, but melanie was real quiet and i wish that she was louder like hyper wise but she wasnt! so then pig gave us a ride back to melanies hosue at about midnight! we had fun! we slept out in her tent in teh abkc yard,now that was fun! I fell asleep real early cuz we were kinda, well ya know! lol! so yea then  when i got up i called my ada and he came and got me!! So saturday was prom for gaeya and mike! they had fun!! so tehn saturday i went to jamies moms house and we stayed there for a whiel then we ended up goin to her cousin brandens house cuz he was havin people over his house! well that  was kinda boring so we left there and we went back to her huose and we just sat there and watched tv for a while then we kept doin what we always do!! btu then we went to bed and sunday i got up at 12:30 in the after noon and started to do my homework!! i never do my homework but i did it anyways! lol! so nwo im just waitin for gaeya to get home cuz whne she gets home we are just hunna go chillaxin in her room with a very special friend of ours!! yes one of our good friends!!lol

                                                                        ~*KaLiE rAe*~

Current Mood: high

Current Music: Shinedown:burning bright

well, well, well, so yea i kinda freaked out on my last entry there! lol! yea i know it was only my oppinion but in my eyes it was the truth! and yea i know that it wasnt good of me to say all of that shit bout her boyfriend sbut i mean come on, he may not talk as much shit bout me as he used to but i know that he still does at least once ina  while! i mnea he hates me so its not like s hes not gunna say  shit bout me at all! So yea brittani yelled at me once again and i k nwo it was wrong but i really dont care cuz it was only what i see in my eyes! maybe no one elses but in mine, it is the truth! so yea anyways basically im sayin that it as wrong to say that much shit bout my sister and john! and i seriously, really, really am sick of al thsi bull shit thast goin ion with me and Brittani, and i know that she is too! and now im gettin yelled at bout it so im gunna go and ill right more later! and weather or not she believes me i dont caare but i relly am sorry cuz im so sick of all this shit all i frickin do anymore is cry so byes!!

Well so these last few days have been good! Me and gaeya gung out wiht mike and rico everyday except one cuyz dickles wouldnt let us go any where! UGh but besides that all ive been doibn is hangin with mike and rico everyday of the week! lol! its fun but it does get  kinda old after while!But hey its ok cuz i really like to hang out withe them!HEHE! But yea me and gaeya i think got on eachothers neves for a couiple days there cuz we were both just bitchin at eachother, but its ok tho!but im really tyred so ill talk to you laters! k peace!
KaLiE rAe

Current Mood: high

Current Music: 2 pac: GhEtTo GoSpEl